Let's see if I can make them sound like they think in my head.
Sometimes I think about how crazy people must feel. Like, how they really think that their imagined realities are real. And I've had the thought before that what if I'm crazy? What if this is not really real and I'm really lying somewhere in a looney bin imagining my life? I know that is really crazy thinking, but what if?
Now, I really don't really think that. I more like imagine that is what it is like to be crazy.
I ponder this sometimes.
Also sometimes, I'll be just bee-bopping right along with my life and suddenly feel like everything is surreal. Like, how can this all be real? Like it's more like a holodeck from Star Trek. Like our reality is really just a scene on a spaceship somewhere. But we have no clue. Us, the people on the holodeck, playing the parts, we have no clue we're playing parts. It's all real to us, when in reality, there's a really much bigger real life going on in the rest of the ship - there's a full-on war!
I pondered this holodeck idea the other day. I was driving home from somewhere, can't remember where now, and was just almost home. I seem to remember the droning of voices of one of our kids, but who knows (that's my real reality, right? hehe). Anyway, I was stopped at a stop sign and just sat there a minute and thought about it. We really kinda' are on a holodeck. We get so wrapped up in the reality in front of us that we don't think about the ship we're on. We don't think about the whole war going on outside our little deck, and that we are crucial in the battle. We forget that there is a veil of the physical that keeps us from seeing the spiritual. We forget that there's a whole world of people out there who don't even realize we live on a holodeck. They think the holodeck is the real reality.
Sounds crazy, huh?