Friday, February 29, 2008

Somethings gotta give!

I can't do this anymore. I am seriously about to seek professional help with this sleeping mess. It's now 2:33 and I am up with Josh for the 5th time. I just put him back in the bed and he's already screaming. I don't know what to do. We are supposed to go out of town tomorrow night and I don't want to take him anywhere. There will be no place for us to be up all night at our friends' house. The kids will be all over sleeping. I am so extremely frustrated. I have gone round and round with God on this one. I am seriously lacking faith that he even cares about me sleeping anymore. I've felt that way for some time actually. I don't think my husband really even understands. I don't think he really gives it a second thought truly. I think he somehow thinks it's my fault and I'm getting what I deserve - and maybe it is and I am. Maybe I've nursed him too long and should have let him cry it out long ago. I don't know. I have serious issues with crying it out. I am doing my very best not to complain, but I'm more miserable than I've been in a really long time. I don't even want to be with Joshua anymore because I'm so exhausted and fed up with him. I really can't go on this way and I'm the only person who ever has to deal with it at all. Everybody else gets all the sleep they want/need. David sleeps all day. The kids sleep all night. I'm tired of being irritable with everybody because I'm not sleeping. I'm just tired.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Chiropractors and Acupuncture

Wow. I had my first visit yesterday with the chiropractor in my gym. She's amazing! She did 30 minutes of acupuncture for me before she adjusted my back. I've never had either and it was so worth it! I am definitely hooked. I never, ever thought I'd go for acupuncture, but it was a hit. David had appointments for both and really enjoyed his also.

We've got so much about to be going on, it's nuts! We have choir for the boys and now baseball. I don't mind, I just hope I don't fail miserably at keeping up with all the places they have to be. I am so thankful that they're the same age and go the same places right now. I have a feeling when Fall gets here that Jake will be going to baseball practice and Cody to football practice. It'll really be crazy then. I don't know how Mom's who work with kids in school can get everything done. I'm convinced that really they don't and just try to make things look good. I absolutely refuse to over-extend myself on purpose. It's just not worth it.

Karleigh gets to be Daisy of the Week next week. She's absolutely loving Missionettes! I'm so happy that it works out where she can go with us. That's another of the beauties of homeschooling. She doesn't have to be at school so early that it's a chore to take her. I get to enjoy her for a bit in the morning also. I think she just loves to get to spend the night somewhere. I hope, hope, hope and pray that as she grows up, she stays close to the Lord. It's so hard for kids to grow up and become independent. Her little innocent heart is so pure right now. I hate to think of what the world can do to her. Or all of my kids.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008


I am so extremely tired of not sleeping. Joshua went to bed tonight at 7:30 because he didn't get a nap this afternoon. He has been up twice. I do not know what to do with him to get him to sleep all night. He'll be up around 6. I think he's probably slept a total of about 20 nights all the way through in the last 14 months. Even when he does, I don't. He's got me so used to waking at least every 3-4 hours that I wake up, listen to the monitor, and go back to sleep. When is this going to end? I adore my son and am beyond thankful to God that he's healthy and pray continually to keep him that way. I try so hard not to complain simply because he is so healthy and beautiful and I know that there are so many babies out there who aren't and their mom's would trade places with me in an instant. I feel like I'm reaching the end of a rope with this and something is gonna have to give. I cannot function this way. My other kids are suffering because I'm miserable with it. It's draining me.

Saturday, February 23, 2008

Some things I learned today...

1) Joshua can fit a quarter of a banana in his mouth without choking.

2) Academy is a REALLY cool store.

3) Joshua thinks Academy is a really cool store.

4) Jacob is turning country on me (he bought boots today and really wants a hat and belt).

5) Three pounds of rigatoni will exactly fit in my crock pot.

6) Cody is a clothes snob (so, so picky).

7) I like the kids' new baseball coach.

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Does anybody read this?

Just curious. Doesn't matter, really.

Karleigh is spending the night tonight. She goes to church with us on Wednesdays and then I take her to her school on Thursday morning, but she won't go tomorrow. She told me on the way home that she has a headache. I took her temp and it was 102. Poor baby. I gave her some Tylenol and she's sleeping in my bed.

I'm gonna go snuggle up with her...

Sunday, February 10, 2008

Jacob is so my kid...

I just caught him reading under the covers with a flashlight. I don't know how many times I was caught doing that at his age.

Josh got his very first haircut today. He was such a champ! He never even acted like it concerned him that they were cutting his hair. He sat in a little yellow car and watched Blue's Clues on the tv. I was sad to see it go, but he looks absolutely adorable. I haven't taken any pictures just yet, but will.

The boys had baseball tryouts yesterday. They both did really well, but Jacob rocked! He hit a line drive out to right field and a couple of base hits. Only one went foul, but he hit it every pitch. Cody did fine.

The boys choir is in full swing now. They had their kick-off party last night from 6-9 and both had a blast. Cody is way more into the choir thing than Jacob is, but they're both liking it. I have gotten to listen to them practice a bit both practices and they sound absolutely awesome already. It's gonna be a great year for them.

Both boys are already making friends. Both have some at church and some in our neighborhood. They'll soon have some on their baseball team. They were already making friends at the tryouts yesterday.

The big boys got haircuts too today. Jake did his usual prep look and Cody is letting his get a little longer. I'm so glad to see them being more individual with their styles and personalities. That's one of the things I wanted for them with homeschooling - that they wouldn't run with a crowd at all.

Ok, I'm going to bed with a book - I'm exhausted.

Tuesday, February 05, 2008

Monday, February 04, 2008

Joshua's lookin' like a boxer.

He looks like he's been in a knock-down, drag-out fight!

A few days ago, he and Cody were playing in the floor and Josh's eyelid got scratched, just under his brow - making a huge scab. Yesterday, we were at the mall and he slipped and fell on a step, busting his lip (not bad, just split a little). Tonight, he fell into the coffee table and had a little bit of a bloody nose. Poor kid. I'm just so glad that none of them are big boo-boo's, just little owie's.

I have so much I should be doing besides sitting here. The kitchen is a wreck, the laundry is not put away and I have to fill out lesson planners for homeschool. Oh, well. I betcha I do a good bit of it in the morning.