Monday, August 30, 2010

One week from today...

I'll be a Charis Bible College student! We're really, really excited.

Lots of changes on the horizon.

David's resigning from the police department today. Surprisingly, I'm not afraid at all. I know we'll be alright. There's alot that is going to have to happen this week, but it's all going to work out.

We went to Charis' kick-off party yesterday. Soooo cool to meet a few of our classmates. I felt like we were heading out to meet our new family.

There are so many like-minded people there. It's amazing.

We met with one of our pastors, Jeff, this past Saturday evening. It was good to get Godly counsel and some validation from him. He said he does not think we're crazy. It was so good to hear that because we've heard from so many family that we are. They'll see...

We have a couple of leads on some income for David.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Crippled Christians

I was just reading a blog about a set of quads that I follow. They are amazing, beautiful boys and I enjoy reading about them. Their Mom writes a chronicle of their daily lives and previously wrote of their journey with infertility. I had not read them all, so was spending some time this morning going through some older posts. At one of the older posts, she had a link to their old blog before it got too big for blogger to handle and they moved it all to wordpress.

Anyway, it had a link to their church. I followed the link and started reading their statement of belief. Everything was all good until they got to the parts on the ministry of the Holy Spirit. They believe that the gifts of speaking in tongues, the working of sign miracles and healing in the first century church were temporary sign gifts and are not for the church today.

That is so very sad. In my mind, I saw a stick figure walking with a cane. I realized that it was the picture of a crippled Christian. That's how the Christian without the Holy Spirit lives. They are in the race, but they are never able to run. They will always be tired. They are saved, yes, but well, crippled.

The ministry of the Holy Spirit in our lives as Believers is critical. I cannot imagine trying to run this race with a cane.

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Some things...

are really hard to blog about.

I am learning so very much right now. I don't like putting some of the things on here because they sound "proud", but sometimes being prideful is not putting things because I'm more worried about what people think than posting the truth. Maybe that makes sense. I should be saying whatever God says no matter how that makes me look.

I've learned that humble people state things like they are, they tell the truth, no matter what people think. It's like asking a room full of people who the best person for a certain job would be. Would I really raise my hand if I thought it was me? I don't know, because I would be worried about what people would think.

Also, extreme shyness is prideful. Sounds crazy, huh? It's true. Think about it. Shyness is just another form of esteeming other people's opinions higher than your own. If you worry so much about what somebody thinks of you that you just won't talk or interact, that's a form of pride.

We should be so in love with the Lord that we believe and speak whatever he says about ourselves.

That being said...

I am a child of the King of Kings! I am blessed beyond measure. He will supply all my needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. I am the head and not the tail. I am redeemed. He loves me as much as He loves Jesus! I am 1/3 wall-to-wall Holy Spirit. My spirit is sealed, perfect and without blemish.

We are in an exciting place. Exciting.

Saturday, August 07, 2010

Wow! We received our conscience when man ate of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. God didn't create us with one! Lots of people blame the Holy Spirit for making us feel guilty and condemned. He doesn't do that. We do that to ourselves. We are no longer under sin or law, so he won't make us feel guilty or condemned. I cannot WAIT to start Bible School!!!

Thursday, August 05, 2010

And then there's now...

Now is good! We still have all the bills I talked about in the last post, which I really wrote this morning, but hadn't posted it yet.

We did go to our meeting at the Bible College. It was fantastic! God's going to work this out and it's going to be lots of fun to see Him do it. I can't wait!

Right now I'm selling a bunch of stuff on Craigslist to get some cash flow going. I'm thankful for stuff to sell!

Kinda a rough spot...

We've been learning so much about walking in the Lord's blessing. I haven't blogged much about it, but right now is an amazing journey for us. We are just coming off of Jubilee time with our church where we've learned and grown so very much. We have not understood the "walking in His blessing" principle, so have found ourselves in a place where we seriously need a miracle. Our mortgage is due. David's child support is due. We are negative in the bank account. Tomorrow he gets paid, but it won't be enough even to cover both. And all the other bills are coming up too. The air conditioner is out on the car, and this is the hottest week of the year so far. David's work changed their dress code and he only has like 3 shirts he can even wear. AHHHHHHH!!!! I'm really trying. I'm really trying not to stress about it. I'm doing well with it most of the time. I've felt to this point, though, like I've been carrying this by myself. David's head's been in a cloud for weeks about everything. We're moving forward to go to Bible school. I want that so very much and know that it's been promised to us. We don't even have the gas for me to drive down there today to do our tour and turn in our applications. He's not happy about that.

On a different page altogether...Jacob's quitting football. And he's so very good at it. He had a hard time with the decision. I don't fault him at all because it's a controversial subject at our house anyway. His back is not in great shape. He's hurt it yet again and doesn't want to go through life that way. I have no problem with that. I don't want him to go through life that way either. He was worried about being an outcast. And made comments about kids getting bolts in their knees just so they could play. Oh, my sweet son, I do know where you're at. I was raised in a small town where football was the religion, not just a sport. And I wasn't a 6'3, 235 lb boy in the 9th grade. I can imagine the magnification of the "outcast" status for him. I've told him I'll take him to the doctor so he can have a medical reason and not just the personal preference. Now I need to decide which doctor would agree with me...

I know there's changes on our horizon. I know this because God promises us we can walk in His blessing if we simply cooperate with it. We are learning how to cooperate. It's not easy, but we'll get there. I fully intend to keep my hand to a plow, not look back and we will see those changes. The seeds been planted, it's sprouted and growing. We're watering them. It's just a matter of time and staying the course before we see the fruits of it all. Did I mention David has to have his knee scoped out on Monday? Fun times...

Tuesday, August 03, 2010


foul - /faʊl/ Show Spelled [foul] Show IPA adjective, -er, -est, adverb, noun, verb
grossly offensive to the senses; disgustingly loathsome; noisome: a foul smell.
containing or characterized by offensive or noisome matter: foul air; foul stagnant water.

That about sums up what it is like when the boys come home during and after football 2-a-days. I have never smelled anything like that...they are seriously, seriously gross!

And then Jacob was describing the locker room to me....where there are like 40 of them - all in the same place! He said the floor is indescribable. Oh, my poor germiphobe son. I totally understand why you don't want the coaches to wash your workout clothes with all the other kids'. I completely get why you want to walk home in the blistering August sun to lay out on the tile floor in your own home. I won't complain about the sweat you are leaving on the floor. I know you can't help being so gross. I, as your mother, "get" you and your quirks.

I will not complain when these practices are over with. Blech.

Sunday, August 01, 2010

Things are changing....

God is really revealing himself to me. I love it. I am so excited about it all of the time. I just don't understand why nobody else is getting all worked up. I mean, my husband and Dena, along with some people in our church, but just in general. I get so focused on Him and excited about what He's doing that I will absently just assume everybody else has to see the changes in everything too. Of course, it's my perception that has changed, not everybody else. I know that, but for a little bit at times, I'll forget that and just think everybody should see it.

Today he showed me that we have not been walking in His blessing. There is a difference in blessings and miracles. A miracle is by-product of sin. If we didn't get ourselves into a crisis, we wouldn't need miracles. People who see lots of miracles live crisis to crisis. Humph. We do need a few miracles right now, and we will see them. As we learn to understand His will, we will walk in His blessings and not need the miracles. That sounds so good! We have always had 'just what we need', but 'just what we need' is not walking in His blessing.

We started filling out our forms for Charis Bible College today. I'm so excited I'm about ready to pop.

God showed me that we need to head in the direction He is sending us and His provision is already there. Just like Elijah with the ravens, He will send the provision to our destination, not where we are sitting stagnant.

By renewing my mind and delighting in the Lord, my fear of the unknown is leaving. I'm standing on promises that He will deliver what He has conceived and brought forward. I've traded worry for excitement. I can't wait to see what God is going to do next!